Thursday, 6 November 2014

Mumma!

Mumma! Just a set of 5 alphabets but, the word occupies the entire universe.The Universe around me!
It's difficult to explain the relationship between a child and his mother.
Mother,The word is incredible. You are the reason behind this word.The magical experience. You kick her, Your turns and twists make her cry. She suffers everything but, over every pain all what she demands is good health for the life inside. 
She carries about one and half kg for a long period. 
When she deliveries you, A glance at the child vanishes all her pain. It's the last time when she's happy watching you cry and then decides no more tears for the lifetime.The first word you spoke ,your first step all are recorded for lifetime.
You might be dark, ugly, weird looking but for your mother your a Rockstar and A Prince/Princess. She will protect you from the world out there but, will scold you at all your mistakes. She might be rude, dominating and stick at times but her heart always beats for you.
She records all your small happiness but, she gulps all your pains and sorrows. She might cry alone but, will teach you to stay strong. She might show you how strong she is but inside she has a soft heart. Your kiss makes her happy but, your mistakes make her weak.

Let me talk about me and my mumma
We share,
We cry,
We Laugh,
And
We Fight together
But, still Our relationship seems complicated¿
Our relationship is such that,
I can imagine life without you but, practically I can't live without you. I think I'm emotionless in your case but, even a small scratch on your body increases my heartrate. I don't care about what people say but, In your case I can make people cry for each word they say.
There were times we had nothing in our hand.Times were difficult and big mess around but, you never lettme down you tried your best to turn my dreams into reality.
You taught me the value of money and respect.You showed me the difference between easy and simple. You always said choose simple over easy coz easy makes you lazy!
We are two completely contrast personalities you often choose south while I turn towards north.  We fight on every single topic but, at the end of the day I rest in your arms.
Me and my mumma share a bit hatke, a bit different and a unique relationship!
Through this blog I just want to say ,
"ThankYou, A big hug and thanks for all what you have done for me and dada. Living alone is difficult, the society never shows a supportive hand towards you, it drags you down but, you never lost hopes you always stood up and showed me the right way. Even though you were alone you never let any of my wishes incomplete, you always fulfilled them.
You ate a bread less but, never let me crave for one. You suffered bad days but, you never let those times affect me. Now, when we have everything, all at one call, you teach me to stay upto line and respect things. You often say "Money is Mind and heart spoiler, It can make your life and spoil as well!" . Your experience are my values! Thanks for all support and protection"
If I start making a list of things mumma sacrificed for me it would extend the limits. Many children avoid saying "I love you mumma! Or thanks mumma!" so to all the readers I would just say lets start from today "Respect Mumma! Say I love you , Kiss her and say thanks for every single thing she does."  Just see your one kiss and thanks will make her day best one.
It's said "Mother is the real God" , have faith in her. She'll never let you fall!
You are my Shield,
You are my Strength,
You are my Self-Esteem,
You are my Vision,
And Overall
You are my Universe!
  

Friday, 31 October 2014

Freaky Friday!

I wish I could skip these fridays!
Fridays have got something different. The 6 days are at one end and friday is at another.I have experienced the worst fridays in my life!  
The thought about 17th June'11 ,the DARK FRIDAY still brings Goosebumps! And now after 3 years ,31st Oct'14 another FREAKY FRIDAY!  Not threatening as the last one but, still...
Fridays have strength to break me.
The feeling of loosing everything thing in hand and waiting for a change. May it be the special person in your life or pride and confidence. Loss is Loss!
Lettme talk about The Freaky Friday i.e 31th Oct'11
Woke-up in the morning with a thought of accepting what ever comes ahead. Finally last day of viva!  The last 4 viva's were best no reviva and no disappoiment . As if the luck was all in my favor.
All prepared with 5 programs out of those tough 10 programs and all prepared for viva. Stepped out of the house.Warm and pleasant morning, everthing sounded cheerful. Saw someone after ages, that smile conversation ☺. Everything was perfect!
Walked inside the lab with confidence it was all game of luck and I picked up the wrong chit.Since, then things changed! 
All I had was Nothing! Staring people around then I made an attempt to convince madam but, as said Game of luck it didn't favor me.
I managed writing what I knew. After leaving the lab, The words striking were "Anushka , you have kicked the ball outside the court!" I had two choice either sit crying or work hard on viva. I choosed the second one I found a lonely corner sat and studied all  concepts that I could.
It was time for viva, all prepared but, what lacked was the confidence. Initially, I answered all questions asked by the internal ;the confidence level was shooting up. The external entered the lab,I can't explain how it went but, all confidence that I had gained lowered. It was fear or something else¿ But, I was losing everything.
BLANK!
She asked question, I tried! But, nothing worked out.I answered upto my level but, things were at wrong place. Reviva! It would sound normal for anyone else, "Reviva hi toh hai!"  that word 'Reviva' broke me.
A big mess
Things were going wrong and more wrong...
Decrement over decrement!
Tension! Tension! Tension!
The saddest kind of sadness is when your tears can't even drop and you feel nothing.
You don't cry.
You don't see.
All blank and people staring you. 
"Reviva,Reviva ayya!" I could hear only these words.
Imagine yourself in a circle with people you never thought sharing that place with. I sat inside the lab for about 2 and a half hour and then gave my reviva.
After reading this you may think "It wasn't such a big issue that it turned the friday into an unlucky friday?"
It might not be a big issue but, the loss is huge!
I lost my confidence
I lost my luck
I lost my strength
It will take time to gain them back but, I'll make upto it.
After todays experience, I would like to share that, "Your luck and confidence are hand in hand ;
Stronger your Luck ,
Stronger your Overconfidence!"  and its
The Overconfidence that kills you!
Stay Strong!

Saturday, 25 October 2014

Arien Females♈

Aries ♈ is the first astrological sign in the Zodiac, its zodiac symbol is Ram.
Duration is 20th March- 20th April.Individuals born between this duration, depending on which system of astrology they subscribe to, may be called Arians or Ariens.

Its very difficult to describe an arien, This is just an attempt done by me.So ariens if I succeed please do share and let all other signs know what they missed!
All about Arien females
Aries woman is very independent, she knows what she wants and she is determined to get it. She is enthusiastic and determined. An arien woman can never backout.You cannot trust an arien. Avoid sharing personal thoughts.

They love watching battles and if they are into it they'll surely give you a tough fight. Most Arien woman is short tempered and has no idea when exactly her trigger might go off.

Born as a female is never an excuse for her, rather she's proud being a female. The word "Give up" is no where in an arien's dictionary.Female arien's are very passionate and ambitious, bold and aggressive. Her Father was a big influence and usually a hero to an Aries woman, setting an ideal that few men can live up to.


Arien woman have envious and jealous thoughts, which retards her progress and dwarf their nature.Aries are guileless, they may blurt out things that they would not have said or thought about.   Ariens dream big, they are ambitious and always demand life Queen-size. They are dominating and don't allow anyone else dominate them.

They love people and have no desire to hurt anyone, they just don’t think sometimes. If an Aries does act in an inconsiderate way, they will be quick to apologize just as they are quick to forgive and forget when you step on their toes.

They think rethink about smallest shit which shouldn't even bother. They can only be happy when they can conquer all fears and respond to all of life’s challenges.

Proud to be an Arien.

Friday, 24 October 2014

Cause sometimes music just speaks to me..



Without music life is a mistake! It seems meaning-less.. Music is sum of all my feelings which cannot be expressed. Music never bores you and even if it does then my dear friend get some life.When your in vain you focus on the lyrics. I have series of songs which connect with my infinitude feelings.

The song at apex is "Outta Nowhere"
I listen to this song on repeats cause the music just speaks to me.When music fails lyrics works and this song has awesome lyrics. Especially the following lines

"Sooner or later that spark just disappears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere 
Everytime one of us ending up in tears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere  

Is it good that we hurt every day? 
Is this worth all the pain that we feel inside? 
Am I too blind to see this is happening to me 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere?"      

     
These above lines are close to my heart.Whatever the situation is these lines connect with my situations. 



Have a look at the Lyrics of "Outta Nowhere"
(Pitbull feat. Danny Mercer And Jamie Drastik)

Sooner or later that spark just disappears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere 
Everytime one of us ending up in tears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere 

Is it good that we hurt every day?   
Is this worth all the pain that we feel inside? 
Am I too blind to see this is happening to me 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere?     

I live the fast life, going nowhere fast 
I seen my past life and politely passed 
But I’m already planning on doing it big 
For my life after death, and live my life after death (baby baby) Baby, 
what you think all the training is for?

Just to properly prepare you for war 
So I keep you on your toes   
If you look out for them friends that are really foes 
This career tried to swallow us Paparazzi tried to follow us 

I’m everything that my mama was: 
Rider, survivor, a motherfucking fighter. 
Thank god for this rapping shit (thank you) Forget the cash – it's about happiness 
Normal life – that’s for the birds I work hard so you never say these words     

Sooner or later that spark just disappears   
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere 
Everytime one of us ending up in tears   
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere   

Is it good that we hurt every day? 
Is this worth all the pain that we feel inside?
Am I too blind to see this is happening to me 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere?    

The critics going nowhere (nowhere) 
Think that they know me like the Bible, oh hell (hell) 
But they don’t understand me, oh well   
Snitching is a sport now so please do tell (do tell) 

The world how I raise hell Yeah, 
I did the crime but I skip jail 
I’m just trying to own teams, get it player 
And dance on the globe like Fred Astaire   

The world is ours baby It’s just waiting for us so don’t be late 
And we can both aim for the sky 
And shoot for the stars and call it a date 
Now you know that I know that we know 
If the world wants war cock back and reload 
A normal life, that’s for the birds I work hard, 
So you never say these words     

Sooner or later that spark just disappears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere 
Everytime one of us ending up in tears 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere     

Is it good that we hurt every day? 
Is this worth all the pain that we feel inside? 
Am I too blind to see this is happening to me 
Outta nowhere, outta nowhere



Without music you live life
But, with music you enjoy life!
Keep listening!